Substitute People

I'm so sick of being a "substitute person" as Kirstin Dunst puts it in Elizabethtown. I'm ignored, walked all over, and basically treated worse than dirt. Maybe it's my fault, but after almost 14 years, I'm really sick of it.
Do you ever wish you could set your school on fire? I want to watch this place burn with all the people in it. I sure as hell hope I get into Catalina for all this time I've spent busting my but.

I just don't get it. The whole eight grade girl thing. The giggly-ness, the makeup, the slutty (or extremly boyish) outfits. It's just not me. I've tired my whole life to fit in and I'm starting to discover just how different I am (even at York). I'm pissed off because when I was failing people treated me stupid because I acted like it, so they thought I was. (Boy that was fun the first week when I started get the highset scores on the tests. They were so shocked! LOL!) And now that I've shown how smart and serious I really am, they treat me even worse. I don't get how jealousy makes people say false things, in hope that they will become true. They (the other six girls) keep saying how ugly and stupid and I am. Let's face I'm beat all of them in wit, personality, and looks. Hell, if you put all six of them together I'd still beat 'em. Now, if it was just them saying cruel and hurtful things then screw it, but my mom keeps going on about how fat I am. And unless I start snorting cocane or stop eating, I'm not getting any thinner. I have abosolutely no support, so I just need to vent sometimes. As fun as it is to yell at people, it's not nice (unfortunately). Well, it's back to the living hell that is the eighth grade. (Damn, I have P.E. next!) I tell ya, if I survive this year, the eighth grade is going to drive me to turn goth and worship satan, or drill my brains out, which ever is more conveniant at the time. I better go or I'll be late. If I don't write soon, assume the worst. ;-)

Hi

Hey. I know I haven't written in a while. I had another world famous Katherine roller-coaster. My grades were okay, then they sucked, I felt horrible and almost committed suicide. But now I'm doing better than ever! I'm really amazed at my progress this year. York has been a great lesson for me on how not to act. I'm grateful that I was given this experience, but at this point I can't wait for it to be over so I can be rid of some of these people forever! I'm sort over the whole blog thing now that the suicidal phase has passed but I think I'll hang on to it a while long. I better get going because I'm going to do math and be intellectual. Bye.