Expectations

I HATE MATH! I have a test tomorrow and I failed the "take-home" test. What the hell am I supposed to do? I can't ask my mom for help and I can't not ask her. It is a no win situation. I am supposed to get strait A's. I want to understand but I have tried and I don't get it. By getting C's in math I am starting to fail my other classes. I'm am just so pissed off. Can't I just skip math I'm not going to need it. If I do I'll just hire someone to do it for me. My dad failed school and eventually dropped out and he's a millionaire, where as my mom got strait A's and skipped two grades and made practically nothing when she was working. What is the point of life? You're born, you live, you die. Why? I wish I was perfect. I will never be good enough for my mom. I will never live up to her expectations. That is all I've ever wanted.