Is What the Heart Wants, Really What it Wants?

I probably should stick to no more than a note a day, but what can I say? I'm on a roll. Anyway...

Random question, but do you believe it's possible to be in love with more than one person at a time? Is it possible to have more than one soulmate? Is there even such a thing a soulmates?

I'm not sure of how I feel about all that lovey-dovey crap; I've never seen a successful relationship outside of my peers, all the adults I know are either divorced or on their second marriage, and I'm kind of just not a mushy kinda chick. But in light of everything I've learned in the last couple of years, I know that love exists. I know that it's out there somewhere, it isn't a just thing of fairy tales and vampire novels.

I'm also fairly certain that I've found it. Crazy as that sounds, I'm fairly sure I met my soulmate in my freshman year of high school. (I would give details, but on the off chance he reads this, I'd rather not spill the beans before have the chance and work up the courage to tell him in person.) And it is crazy, I wouldn't have believed it myself before we met. But he's just the most amazing person, and the instant we met something just told me he was important.

But if it is/was him and only him. That should be it. That should be all there is. I shouldn't like other people, but I do. I've fallen very hard for other people. I start to wonder if maybe he's just my Jacob Black; maybe my Edward is still out there somewhere.

Did Bella ever really have a choice? Could she have decided that Jacob was the one she loved and wound up with him instead of Edward, leading a completely different life? Or were her and Edward so meant to be that nothing could have come between them but each other? She seemed to be certain it was so, and sometimes I wish I was that certain to.

So I ask to you, whoever was bored enough to find and read this, what do you think? Is each person out there just meant for one other person? Or is life determined by choices, is the person you love determined by choices?

I don't think any of us will ever really know for sure, aside from what we find in our own lives of course, but I wonder. Sometimes I feel like my life could go in a million different directions based on every choice I make. It's scary because one wrong move and I could lose it all. I could lose him while biding my time, waiting for a better offer; or I could someday find a better offer and discover that I settled too soon. Regardless, I am utterly intrigued to see where my life goes. In ten years time, I'm going to be such a different person; I can hardly wait to meet her.