I've always had trouble with the concept of crushes.
I like someone... But no, wait, I can't like him...But wait, do I like him?...I think I like him...If I really do like him then should I be asking myself if I really like him? ...And so on and so forth.
I've come to multiple revelations about this as of late that finally just clicked in my head as a complete theory. You see, I fall a little in love with every boy I meet. When I think about it, I can name maybe two of my guy friends who I didn't have a slight crush on at some point in time. And when I think about this guy I just dealt with recently, I realize that I tend to go for guys who are imperfect. Even though I never really had him, loosing him hurt so much simply because I was so smitten with his perfection. When boys have flaws, your heart is safe because someday, when you lose them, you can just remember the flaws and it will be okay. I'm not sure I could survive it if a boy I really did like ever broke my heart.
Whether it's self preservation or self deprivation, I'm not really sure. But I think I'm going to have to follow the system until I'm at least a little stronger.
im sorry.. i kind of am the same way.. i fall a little in love with every guy i meet too
ReplyDeletedare i say that its the imperfections that make you love them? what if getting hurt made you strong enough to one day fall in love?
ReplyDeleteThe imperfections may make you fall in love with the guy but soon enough you're blinded to those imperfections. Yet, a little after that, the guy does something as a result of that imperfection and THEN you're heart-broken.
ReplyDeleteDoes that make any sense? It certainly does in my head...
@TheGirliestGuy Well I guess I'll have to get back to you on that one when I fall in love some day.
ReplyDelete@hedieh I don't necessarily know that falling for the imperfections was quite what I was going for, but that does make sense, and it's a very good point.